don't look up just let them think
there's no place else you'd rather be in now
you can't turn back
because this road is all you'll ever have
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Wednesday, November 4, 2009, 5:05 PM
bmx riding
OVERDUE PICTURES                   Wokey Dokey, that's about all of the pictures that I can provide. Now, look at this... Awesome shit! Saturday, October 24, 2009, 3:21 AM
Pa-ra-mo-ray!
 Yes, I am totally loving this album. Although, they have a slight different sound from the previous albums but hey, isn't that why it's called, "Brand New Eyes"? I am hoping one day, some time around next year that they would come crash into one of Singapore's concert theatres. I would definitely go. There's no way that I would miss the opportunity for anything, even if it is during exams. I'd get the early bird ticket and start revising way ahead, hahaha simple as that. Anyways, I just figured out that I am into Paramore because of Paramore not for anyone. For a fact, I knew Paramore way before I met that someone, lah kan. Only, that I wasn't making Paramore a big deal in my life, knowing a few songs here and there. But, as you keep listening to them, you'll let them grow on you. It's amazing. So, I was figuring out that whenever I feel like rocking out and headbanging, I'd listen to Avenged Sevenfold. However, if I feel like grooving to upbeat music, Paramore is the best. :) Don't get me wrong, this has nothing to do with anybody. So jangan nak perasan, please. Anyways, if they come, I know who to bring along. Wow, let me count...... Okay well, too many. Hahaha, do you know why I keep picturing them to come to SG? That's because, Jason, my cousin from Aus gets to watch them perform live in February at the Soundwave Festival. Uggghhh... Jealous, can? Pfft. Anyways, this post is meant to be some kind of random 3 am post with no clue of what to talk about and also, because Farok wants me to update. -.- I guess, a few songs in this album is stuck in my head, but I'm totally loving it all! Okay, when I'm like tired, sometimes I talk crap randomly. It gets draggy so make me stop now! Lol, okay seriously. Goodnight! ZzZzZz! Thursday, October 22, 2009, 10:23 PM
Closure.
The Fray - Vienna The day's last one-way ticket train pulls in We smile for the casual closure capturing There goes the downpour There goes my fare thee well There's really no way to reach me There's really no way to reach me There's really no way to reach me 'Cause I'm already gone There's so many words that we can say Spoken upon long-distance melody This is my hello This is my goodness There's really no way to reach me There's really no way to reach me There's really no way to reach me 'Cause I'm already gone Maybe in five or ten yours and mine will meet again Straighten this whole thing out Maybe then honesty need not be feared as a friend or an enemy But this is the distance And this is my gameface There's really no way to reach me There's really no way to reach me Is there really no way to reach me? Am I already gone? So this is your maverick And this is Vienna ps: goodbye to you, forever. Monday, October 19, 2009, 10:07 AM
it's time to come clean
you. How have you been? I hope you're doing perfectly fine out there. My motive of doing this, is to let you know every single bit of truth, whether you feel like reading this or not. Well, at least I have made the initiative to write this, so you could understand my point of view and I could let out the things I want to say all this while. You're probably gonna think, "Why write here? When there are other alternatives." I know that you don't like having people to read about our lives, but hear me out. I am afraid to send this long-paragraphed letter to your email, because I know you might just trash it after reading. Msn, well, it's too long to type on Msn. Plus, We barely meet up to talk, anyway. So with this blog, it boils down to the last resort of reaching out to you. I've been trying to make peace with the people that I barely speak in the past life, as friends again. Here I am, trying to make peace with you, because I don't like knowing the fact that, there is a huge wall in between us. Well, I guess I'm doing just fine... living my life as per normal. Only, it's without you. It saddens me, because half of what I am, is you. Everyone that I know, are all my friends. Nothing more. Well, everything that I have said and about to say, is deeply the honest truth that you will ever hear from me. I will admit and apologize this, one more time to you. I still remember the day when we spoke on the phone, I was lashing harsh words at you, and it finally came to a point where I wanted to be apart from you. The truth is, I was mad at you for treating me like a person who is invisible in your eyes, without a reason. Both you and I, were terribly busy with our school schedule and projects. I guess, I tried my very best to manage my time with you, but I failed. I failed to get your attention. But, I did not hesitate to apologize to you sincerely right after, because I know, it hurt you a lot. And with that, it hurt me too. I'd rather apologize instantly, rather than dragging the situation, when I know it was my mistake, my fault. It took us a while to get back on track, but it was still shaky. Remember the time, we sat at the library, and I tried to tell you that I was trying to make this right and deep down, I hoped you would try to save it too. Somehow, the person in you, did not want to. I can totally understand why you were reacting that way. But, I did all I could to make it up to you. I wrote a long note, met up with you after your Friday prayers, kept repeating my apology to you while I cried my eyes out. However, you sat there and did nothing. Sometimes, you don't tell me how you feel or what you're thinking. And for that, I have no idea what was running through your mind. It would be better if I do know, you see. Plus I wasn't expecting anything from you, but just to say that you forgive me sincerely and hoped we could return to normal. I did not give up hope, just yet. Each day and night, I prayed to Allah to give me patience and to guide us through the right path again. I tried to text you, to keep in touch with you. I tried to make things right again, like wait for you after school, so we could go home together. That's because, we always do. Somehow, you pushed me away to be with your friends, when I tried to revive our relationship. It took me a lot of patience, and I just tried to swallow it, all of it. Only, you did not try your hardest. You were letting everything just fall apart, right in front of you. All those time when I tried my hardest, you kept avoiding the situation, by spending more time with your friends. It's alright, because I didn't want to restrict you from doing what you want. All I ever needed, was you to accept me back. As time passed by, things got from bad to worse. I was beginning to lose faith and patience. The moment when you still treated me like I was a complete stranger in your eyes, the moment when you said, your friends are your top priority, because they were always there for you, no matter what. I felt like I was no longer an importance in your life. To tell you the truth, that really killed deep within me. All those while, I tried all I could.... but you kept pushing away. I couldn't take it any longer and it was time to give you your space and freedom. I gave you, your freedom with your friends because I know, they mean more to you than me. All I know, I apologized and tried my hardest, but yet, I still failed. I still remember the time when you sent a long text, telling me that we can hardly spend time due to preparations of exams. I agreed, because I was in the same situation with you, as well. But, it came to a point when I found out, you went shopping with the group of friends you usually, hang out with, to ION Orchard after you said all of that to me. I kept it to myself, and I just wanted you to be happy. Don't get me wrong, but I'm not trying to bring up the past. But, whatever mistakes and all of the heart-breaking nonsense, I forgive you with all my heart. Throughout our good and bad, I appreciate every single time spent with you. All this while, when we have been in silence, I was giving you your freedom with everything that you want to do, but sometimes, I feel it would be nice of you to talk to me. Yes, I have heard stuff about people stating facts about you, saying the disadvantages of you. It made me realize that, everyone has their own pros and cons. It's just whether you can accept it or not. I accepted you for who you are, but up til today, I don't know whether you've changed after a period of time of knowing you, or that is just how you are. The Farhan, that I once knew, wasn't stuck up, someone who is humble, cheerful and soft-spoken. There may be people out there, disagreeing with me on this, because they don't know you, like I do. It saddens me to see us like this. Honestly, I really miss you. I miss seeing your smile, because I know, your smile will always make me smile, no matter what. It's your specialty. And, I still keep everything that you gave me. To end this on a lighter note, whether if you want to believe this or not, most of my "pm" on Msn or recent "ps:....." in my blog entries, were not for you. It was for someone else, I don't know if you know who I'm talking about. But, I guess you do. You can personally ask me who it is, if you want to. I'm gonna say, that I'm sorry, once again, and my feelings for you has not changed a bit. It has always stayed strong deep within me. And everything, is the honest truth. I hope, one day, you'll realize that, I've always loved you for who you are. Please, take care of yourself... Have a good life. Ps: This is just to let you know how I feel and to clear the air. I wish you all the best in life. Tuesday, October 13, 2009, 8:16 PM
stoked about it, dude. Everyday is like a total slack day. Although, I can't afford to slack around; final term, final push! :) I can't wait to get out of this school and start fresh. Specifically, because of the JOURNEY. Thank god for making people build most Polytechnics at the West and North side. To those you live in the east, have a nice time travelling up the MRT Map, or you could just stick to Temasek. It has the same meaning as Singapore Poly, according to Farok, lah kan. :) Same, but different. Hahaha! So, today. I ended school super duper early and I got to meet up with Squnky for a quick shopping spree. I bought a new pair of shoes at Queensway while Squnky was spending over indulgence as apparently, she bought herself a Vans Zapato shoes. It all happened when I mentioned, "this looks SUPER cantik!" Immediately, she fell in love with it. Lol. Well, I was gonna get it at a Girl's size but...... No stock! Damn... Moving on. After Queensway, we headed down to City Hall's HMV to get a DVD. As we waited for the salesperson to get it, we wondered around the store and saw band's t-shirts. Well, they all look ugly except this super awesome TRANSFORMERS tee. It had the Autobots logo in glossy red. But no size, ARGH! Hahaha... All in Guys tee sizes. Sigh... We got back on the train towards Boon Lay and bought a 3/4 pants at Giordano. Im lovin' it! :) Yeah, I remember how I said I was gonna get one more thing and trying to prove myself that I'm not a shopaholic? Okay well. 2 more things on my list! Lol, I can't help it. But, this is seriously enough. The shopping and everything has got to stop. I am currently down to my few hundreds. Yeah, $200. From $500. I have to keep that level of having "enough" money again. So each week, I will save $10 until it gets to a maximum satisfaction level. And, hopefully, it goes right in the bank account. Hahaha, (which I doubt so). *Eh Farok, what a coincidence sia. You, working with Apen, and you hardly recognise her from the past life. -.- Selenge! Hahaha, it was nice to chit-chat with you for a while the other day when you were working. And, trim your helmet hair la! Walao! Lol Monday, October 12, 2009, 9:05 PM
the remaining 6 months.....
School has already started, and to tell you the truth, it's not that bad after all. When I woke up this morning for school, I felt no dreading nor excitement. It's like, going out, taking the bus and the MRT and meeting up with friends. Lol Apart from no studying today, it feels good to see the familiar faces again. An update about yesterday. Ayie invited me to watch his relay at Bukit Gombak Stadium, and hell yeah, they did an awesome job. I'm so proud of you and your team mates who ran for the relay, ayie! Good job! :) Anyways, I had to make a quick move after their relay to pick up the bicycle which I ordered a few weeks back. Yes, a BMX. To think of it, along the way to Sunshine place in CCK, I was thinking of the pros and cons of getting my hands on this lovely bicycle. In reality, it looks nice.. with its black coating, with red and white combination on it. I swear, it looks sexy. But, it won't last long. Due to its looks and its common trend in this generation, it won't go well with me when I reach at the age of adulthood, right? Imagine myself, at the age of 28 riding BMX. How funny, would that be? I played safe and chose the best option; a Moutain Bike. It's pretty rational, though. I can't wait to have that night cycling with Ernie and gang at their place til morning. That's just gonna be so awesome! :D Ps: I'll write you just to let you know, that I'm alright. Can't say I'm sad to see you go, cause I'm not. Friday, October 9, 2009, 12:42 AM
so live your life... EH EH EH!
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